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| I grew up in Belgium and was sold to a murderous pedophile network. |
| Around my 6th birthday. |
| I have been used on this network for five and a half years. |
| Adult men who were part of this exclusive club were there for various reasons. |
| But there was a lot of alcohol, a lot of drugs, and the children were the commodity, the most valuable commodity. |
| They were mainly used for sex. |
| But there were also a few aristocrats in this club who liked to kill children. |
| And then my time had come. |
| I should be killed when I was 11. |
| I was tortured because someone who had protected me for a while and then really abused me was done with me. |
| I was strapped to a butcher block. |
| He was black with the blood of all the children before me. |
| I was there for a couple of hours. |
| My body is full of scars. |
| And every scar reminds me of that moment. |
| I thought I was going to be killed. |
| Like all children who were not loved enough to live. |
| And I would be forgotten too. |
| And I wasn’t ready to die. |
| Someone in the network loved me enough to save me. |
| The torture lasted a few hours. |
| I was on this network for five and a half years. |
| During that time, I was raped many, many, many times. |
| I have no scars to show how many times I have been raped. |
| But I did the math. |
| It was usually a whole night at the weekend. |
| I calculated that I was raped for about 6 hours a week. |
| So actually raped. |
| 1716 hours of rape. |
| Even before I was 12 years old. |
| I grew up with instructions given to me by the person who saved me. |
| That kept me away from prostitution and drugs. |
| That got me out of the country. |
| From Belgium, where it all happened. |
| As a young adult, even though I had no scars, I was so focused on being a sex object that I attracted the men. |
| And parts of me needed that to live. |
| Because that was the only way I knew to feel good. |
| As a young woman, I was so unseen and stamped. |
| And everyone was ready to accuse me. |
| To be promiscuous. |
| And as it says: „cheap“. |
| A whore. |
| All these things, all these insults, they judge me so quickly. |
| And then when I healed, I realized: No, I have to break out of the pattern that I need sexual attention. |
| Let me get away from it. |
| Don’t let me make myself an object anymore. |
| Let me be a free woman. |
| So I’ve worked for decades to feel all this pain. |
| From what was done to me. |
| The betrayal of being sold by my parents. |
| Children are the most vulnerable of all of us. |
| That is why we want to create a society where children will be safe. |
| In which children have a community around them. |
| Every child deserves security. |
| No child deserves what I had to experience. |
| And what millions of children experience every day. |
| Unfortunately, that’s part of the current system. |
| As women, we have so much potential to become really powerful by feeling everything we have to endure as women. |
| That gives us more strength than everyone else. |
| All the pain behind all the impotence and humiliation. |
| Really feeling what was done to me, really understanding that it wasn’t me that I was ultimately okay. |
| I was a child, I became a victim. |
| It was not my fault. |